Hair blues

I really wanted to throw in the towel the other day. I mean seriously give up doing hair altogether and just be done with it. I told my self I would never become like my mom. When she went to beauty school she learned to highlight hair using the oldschool method the cap. She used to do it to me all the time growing up. I remember her saying that once foiling came into play she was pretty much out. Learning to foil hair is really hard and takes a lot of practice. I remember it took me almost 4 hours to do a full weave on my first client. By the time I was about to graduate I was the fastest foiler and could get my clients in and out in record time. Once I started doing hair at home and having to work around nursing babies and nap time my speed came in really handy and thats why so many people told me they came to me. To get in and out. Well since my mom only had me really to learn foils on it never took off for her. And soon, because foiling was so much better than the cap I stopped having her highlight my hair. And just like that she was limited to all over colors and haircuts. I told myself I would keep up with the trends and not loose it. Well its hard! The trends are changing and I never ever thought foiling would become outdated! Now there is hair painting and balayage. I never learned those techniques in school and not to mentions all the different colors lines available right now.I don't get to work in a salon and have a continuing education. My name is written all over my clients hair and I'm looking outdated and I hate when someone brings me a picture and I'm unable to achieve the look they want with foils. I have been watching a lot of hair artists on YouTube and trying to learn about new color lines. Well these past 2 weeks have been so crazy with hair appintments (I did make some good Christmas cash). The other day I did my clients hair who I have been doing for 9 yrs and I gave her an awful color job! Sadly not my first. Sometimes things look pretty good in my head but don't always come out right. SO before she left I had to re foil her to break up the red mess and then she tx me a pic after I sent her home in foils(classy I know) and it was still bad! She had to come back again. Gosh I just could not get it right. I was so depressed and mad and angry and sad and just told TJ I didn't need this stress and that I didn't care. I was DONE.
But really I do care. For as long as I can remember I have been doing hair. I took appointments from about 20 friends in high school for all the different dances. Mona would fly me out to California for me to do all of Chelseas friends hair for prom (I made bank$$) I was known for my updos. Hair is what I do and my thing and I don't want to loose my skills and have my daughters not want me to do their hair. SO I'm gonna suck it up. I invested in a new balayage coloring kit, I'm gonna take some Saturday educational classes on new color lines and new coloring techniques that are offered at the beauty supplys.  My friend Nicole came over today for a color. She is such a funny sweet person and I am just getting to really know her because we teach Sunday School together. She loves to drop by and hang out and let the boys play. The first time I met her she had this really bad highlight going on. And I have wanted to get my hands on her hair for a long time. Well she finally made an appointment and today I felt much better about hair. She went from trailer trash dark with trashy roots to a natural brown melt. I WISH I would have taken before and afters. Well she came over later today and had some leggings and skirts (she sells them) and told me to pick one. So I did. She told me that she just wanted to let me know that she really loved her hair! I told her she already paid with a check but she said she has never had her hair done and actually liked it and certainly never felt pretty because of it. She said she feels pretty and that her kids have never complimented her so much before. I was almost in tears that she was saying this and that she felt like she needed to pay me more. THAT is why I went to Cosmetology school. To help people feel good about themselves. I totally needed to hear her say these things to lift my spirits. Back to school for me!