Yard work time!

Saturday was busy.

Almost every spring we throw down a layer of multch in the flower beds. I love the result, how it looks and because it really helps keep the weeds down but man it is hard work and I dread it.

We also decided to take out a bunch of bushes and move around some others to make room for planting more flowers. I also spray painted my deck chairs so they wouldn't look so crappy.

Tj also took Chloe on a date since she was way past due. They went to Build a Bear. Chloe is a hoarder of any thing soft and fuzzy. I honestly don't know how or where she sleeps on her bed.

It was the perfect place for her.

Tallie and I also had a little date that night. Since they have changed the age limit to 8 years and older for Womens General Conference, Tallie and I went together. She was so cute and wrote down questions on her piece of paper she was given and answered them as the talks went on. After, she was starving because I am lame and didn't feed her dinner before we went. She wanted to go to the Cracker Barrel so bad but I really didn't want it to be a late night so she settled on McDonald's.

Bedtime routine

Each night before I put Kasen down for bed either TJ or I will sit in his chair and read him some books...I love those few minutes that we spend together.

A lot of the time during the day I find him in his room sitting in his chair reading his books. 

So cute!

Change

I feel like there are too many changes lately. I'm feeling depressed and uneasy.

I really hate change. A lot.

People in the neighborhood are selling their houses left and right and suddenly I see us as the old family surrounded by newlyweds and no friends for my kids. I don't know where Tessa will end up or where her road will go. I love living down the street from her and sharing clothes, shopping, letting the kids play, going to the park and seven peaks and Sunday dinners. I might loose my mind if she really has to move away.

I've lost a brother in law. A friend and family member going on 10 years and all of a sudden he is gone, in every kind of way. Even my calling is changing and people are being moved around and the primary president might move. Tjs sister Megan and her family are moving to Idaho in the fall and Chelsea left last summer.

What is going on?!

The only change I am dying for is a make over inside of my house. 

I have been saving hair money to completely redecorate and just the other day I blew it all and now have buyers remorse and feel so out of control with spending money.

And I guess I have been really good at being ungrateful lately due to my complaining about simple things that bug me about the house or that I want to change.

Tj says lets just move. Start over and build a house and do all the things differently that we didn't know about when building our first. I couldn't give up a great neighborhood and area just for a new house with cool things. 

I don't want to start over.

I don't want to be the new guy.

He says lets see how the neighborhood turns out in a few years.

The only thing that would get me to even think about moving would be if Becky and Rob picked up and left....then my world has ended and then I could go.

I have started running again and signed up for my first race. I can't say I'm super motivated or pumped about running yet. It's still dark and cold in the mornings. I think I just need a really long run up the canyon in the sun light with my music blaring to get me excited.

Tessa signed up for her first marathon and wants me to run it with her.

Its like in 11 or 12 weeks. 

Pretty sure there is no way I can be ready.

Which is sad because I would love to have this memory with her.

DISNEYLAND!

We left for the happiest place on earth Sunday morning. TJ took Kasen up to his moms house for the week. I was going to miss that little booger. TJ told me he even shed a little tear as he handed him off. But it was for the best.

We stopped and spent the night in Vegas to split up the drive and TJ booked a fun hotel with a fun pool for the kids. We got there around 5 and guess what? The pool was already closed for the night! What family hotel closes the pool that early?? We were all pretty disappointed but luckily the room had a massive jet tub and so plan B was to swim in there. The kids were pretty pumped about that actually. It did take like 45 min just to fill that tub up tho. The next day we finished our drive and spent the rest of the day at Huntington beach.

My only regret is that I didn't wear my swimsuit (Thanks to TJ who said it would be jacket weather at the beach and freezing water..)It was actually so nice and I wanted to get in like the rest of the crew did. Getting pooped on by the sea gull definitly made up for that tho. Lexi had the time of her life in her own little world on the sand and sea but Tallie got borded pretty quick and Chloe couldn't stop crying after realizing that sand sticks to wet bodies and it's a never ending cycle of rinsing sand out of her crack. For dinner we went to the Cheesecake Factory and did I ever mention I LOVE CHEESECAKE?! 

Disneyland was first on our to do list and the kids just couldn't wait to get there. I really wish that the park would have been dead like it should have been. Apparently Arizona had their spring breaks going on and the crowds easily sucked a lot of fun out of the day due to standing in LONG LINES for the majority of the day. It was fun taking Tallie on some big rides for the first time and seeing her reaction. She was for the most part ready to try most of them. But never twice. The Tower of Terror is my fav and I don't know who screamed more, me or her. The weather was so nice and hot. The parade was magical for the kids and Chloe about beamed out of her body when each princess as they passed looked her in the eye and waved. 

Sea World was my favorite. It was neat to watch my kids eyes in awe as they saw those whales just out of the water. We sat in the splash zone hoping to get wet but of course we were the only ones who didn't get a speck of water on us. Poor kids, happy mom.

It was also less crowed and no lines.

Tj made a late night run to the Cheesecake Factory again, just for us after the kids went to bed which was a bad idea but oh so good. The best part of the trip was just being with my family, away from home, away from responsibilities and friends, and just v bvgc being able to hang out with TJ every single day and going back to his stomping grounds. I am so grateful for his job and that its even possible for us to go on vacations like this. He did spend some late nights up

on the computer working long after the kids and I went to bed.

It was hard to come back to reality and jump back in the swing of life. But it was so great to see my little Kasen man after a long week. Once Tj brought him home he wouldn't even look at me and if I tried to hold him he just cried. He missed his Mona mom.

Made my heart a little sad. I am so grateful for TJ's parents and their love for our kids and that they love and offer to watch them all the time.