LASIK

Yesterday I got my eyes FIXED!

I was so nervous about the surgery and knowing every little step they take and what happens to your eyeballs during the surgery. I would have been better off not knowing the process but they made me watch a video so I would know all of the risks involved and then I had to sign my consent. There was a few minutes before they had started when I was laying there with my booties and hair net on thinking I don't need this, I can still leave.

But I REALLY did want the surgery.

They say it doesn't hurt, which it does not but there is a lot of pressure involved and it makes me pretty queezy feeling that. Since my eye sockets are pretty small the thing they had to put in my eye to hold it open was too big and now I have some pretty cool red spots all over my eyes. They gave me a stuffed bunny to hold onto which at first I thought was pretty silly but they made me hold it anyway. Once they got started I was so glad to have something to squeeze. I was so tense and I really hated the feeling of my eyes being pinned open and then my eyesight going black. Just knowing that there was a laser cutting my eyeball, making a flap and permanently changing the shape of my cornea. Really the only thing that got me through it was singing primary songs in my head and a constant prayer in my mind. I was so worried that I might be the 1% that went blind and would never see my kids smile again. I know I can be pretty dramatic.

The whole process is pretty amazing and I still can't believe I actually went through it. I came home that day not really seeing anything. Everything was SO blurry and I was just living in a haze and lights were unbearable. I had to shut all my blinds all day. It was pretty hard to see like that all day. Plus I had to wear these sweet eye shields all day and I have to wear them every night while I sleep and I have to put a thousand antibiotic eyedrops in my eyes for a week. Oh and no make up.

This morning I woke up and I CAN SEE! I still have to squint a little to get the time on the clocks from far away but that will come in a couple days I'm sure but in the past I wouldn't have been able to see even the clock itself.

I am amazed and so glad I did it and so glad for my husband who wanted so bad for me to have this and I know that he has been wanting it for himself for so long. I am so grateful for his job and that it was even an option for me to do this.