Thoughts

You know when you feel like your life need a change? Not moving or anything like that but more like a change in your life to head you in the right direction again.

The last few testimony meetings at church have got my mind going. I don't feel like I am progressing and moving forward. I feel like I am just another person living in this world living life. I feel like I am such a negative person these days with nothing good to say or report about my day. Sometimes I only feel like I can add to a conversation with gossip.

It is so easy to find the negative in everything and everyone. For the past couple days I have been really trying to think before I speak and think really does that need to be said? Does that info need to be passed along and what is its purpose, so I can have something negative to talk about. Its pretty hard to bite your tongue and leave things unsaid and instead replace it with something positive. For example the other day running a girl started talking bad about a girl I had a calling with. Really she is amazing and she is great at magnifying her calling and doing all that she can. But others view her as controlling and crazy. I tried to put some good words in for her because really I think she is amazing and I would hope that people don't bash me behind my back about how I do my own calling.

We are all learning to do things we never took classes for. I've noticed much of what I say is not positive and leads to no where and it's so sad how much I am starting to notice that.

I want to be positive and try and look for one good thing in all situations and people. There is something good in everything if we look for it.

Positive attracts positive.

I am trying to make changes at home to have the Spirit in our home more and hopefully in return help me from yelling and being so mean to the people I love the most.

As a family we made a sticker chart and every night we read our scriptures the kids put up their stickers. Once school starts and we will all be awake before TJ leaves for work I hope we can go back to having family prayer in the mornings.

For myself I have started reading the scriptures again everyday and it just so happens the YW were challenged to read the Book of Mormon in one month. I jumped on that band wagon and hope to finish it with them.

I'm trying to not look at my phone every 2 sec and a quote from someone in the Ensign this month is helping me:

"Where ever you are, be there".

Meaning if you are driving, just drive (no txing), if you're on a date, be there (no phone), if you're talking to someone, be there, if you're at church, be there.

My mom also sent me a book called "Praying circles around your children". The author is not LDS but it is seriously the best book ever.