Soap

I think I seriously need to hand a bar of soap around my neck and stick it in my mouth every time I am negative, complaining, gossiping, talking bad about others, or just flat out saying anything that can or should be left unsaid.

I guess what I am trying to say is that I don't really like myself right now and I can't stand hanging out with me.

There are people in my life who seem to be negative about everything and others who can't seem to say anything nice about someone else and I feel like I am becoming one of them. I don't know what my problem is but I feel like everything that comes out of my mouth lately is not good and it needs to change. There was once a time when my dad told me that he was proud of me because I always seemed to talk highly of people and to give them the benefit of the doubt.

I want my dad to think that way of me again.

I want to like myself and be a friend I actually want to hang out with. I don't want my kids to hear their mom bashing everything and bad mouthing everyone.

I notice my girls do it every now and then and it hurts to know that they learned it from listening to their own mom.

This is my challenge:

If I can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all.

Look for something good in everyone,

and be more POSITIVE.

And SHUT MY MOUTH